GothicBlackAngel

I don't really know why I bother writing this since about three people will read it, but anyway...

I just realised it's been over a year since I posted anything. I have a small handful of poems I've written since, none of them I consider particularly worth submitting.

I can tell myself that I've been artistically sterile because my life has been a rollercoaster through mind-hell for the past two years and something. I can tell myself that until my tongue drops out, but the fact remains that I don't think I'll be producing much without encouragement. Be it poetry, short stories, photomanips or whatever else. God, my gallery is like a bad study in ecleticism.

ANYWAY!
(Thank you for actually reading this)
I'm not writing this journal to whine about my life and artistic crisis. I just want to ask you, you lovely person who's reading this, to write an honest comment underneath about why you're watching me and if you'd like me to carry on doing whatever it is you like about my old stuff.
You like my poetry? Say so.
You like my old photomanips? Say so.
You have no idea how this ended up in you inbox and/or what's in my gallery? Say so anyway.
etc.
You get the gist. I just want to know if it's worth trying to be active again or not. I would do a poll but I can't because I'm a peasant. Don't be nice to avoid hurting my feelings. Because if I'll think you guys like my stuff but then nobody looks at it it'll be much worse. I'm quite resigned to the worst anyway, and it's alright. I'll just concentrate on my novel and save up my poetry for unlikely real-life publication.

Be honest, not nice.

I'll shut up now, comment!

I have one. Still don't know what to use it for... general cool stuff, maybe my photography so I stop spamming dA with it...

Anyway, if you're interested meripihka5.tumblr.com/

I also created it about 2 minutes ago.

Because it's been too long since I last posted a poem and that was a pretty old one too. Over a year since I posted a new one.

Now, in the last year I have written little, because it's been a bad time. But I have written something and now, good or bad, emo or proper, I'm submitting it.

(Journal entry mostly because I don't want to explain all of this in every single artist's comment.)

I know most of you couldn't possibly care less. I mostly just needed another journal entry because I'm still getting occasional comments on the old one and that's a little out of date.

But not completely. Because I'm still working on that same f***ing thing and not realy getting anywhere with it. So I just had the idea that maybe I could keep a blog somewhere about writing and stuff. I probably wouldn't talk about the story itself though, because I'm very paranoid and because of possible copyright issues if I ever publish it. So... any opinions? Mostly, would you follow it? (I can't make polls otherwise I'd just stick to that.

Aaaand that's all for me because it's way past my bedti-zzzzzzzzzzzzz

I just went to Waterstones and out of curiosity took a browse through the "Dark Fantasy" section... I suspected there would be a lot more vampire romance novels around other than Twilight and True Blood stuff but... SO MANY! I read some of the back covers and cringed to no end!!
I am currently working on a vampire novel myself and I can assure you it is not like that1 There is hardly any romance at all and none of it includes the main character. My novel was supposed to (if it will have success of course, which I doubt at this point) either put an end to this crappy vampire romance craze or at the very least to open another current of vampire fiction, away from all this pop culturism... Now I rather hope it will put an end to the whole vampire fashion, at least for a while, until people will be interested in the old nature of the Vampire and not in angsty pretty boys.
I mean, what happened to vampires!! Originally they were monsters, the projection of human desires without control that attack people but we can fight them etc. then with Anne Rice they aquired a personality of their own they were about freedom and a t the same time lack of it (at least for a while, then she fell down a little too, in my opinion). But now?? Pretty boys and girls either with petty pseudo-religious issues or being sex-crazed whores... WHAT HAPPENED???
Ok, I know what happened, but am I the only one standing for vampiric fictional dignity here?

I am torn between being more motivated to write my novel and wondering how will I dare to come up with yet another vampire novel and expect people to believe me when I'll say it will be different. Right now I hardly dare to say I like vampires because, especially since I am a girl, people will think I like Twilight, and if I say I don't they'll think True Blood (which I think is basically Twilight plus sex and a little more action).

If anyone who'll read this thinks as I do, please, PLEASE, write a comment, I need all of your encouragement to keep on writing...

Thank you.